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No. 11
40 × 30cm Timed, signed, limited edition print of the soft pastel work, Softly. Archive Quality, German Etching paper print.
This product includes the signed and numbered print and certification. This print is unframed and has a red border.
“Softly runs in the same vein as No.7 Lucky. Throughout, you see the harder edges of the stars softening as their long journey continues. It has a sense of gaining more insight, the further you go, and the more time you spend. I have in mind a very very useful thought - that the heart does not forget; you learn to live with a loss. Instead our hearts expand with time, so we can’t feel the prickly edges so much. You die when they die. That version of you does anyway. Don’t think for one second it doesn’t. You mourn yourself as much as you mourn them. The future you had, the life you were leading.
You have to grow a new self. One that can carry the weight of them not being in your world any more. It’s hard, and it’s very sad. It’s also very beautiful if you can get to the point where you feel soft enough in your heart to see it expand, and capture the new you that can look at all the times you had and be happy that you had them.”
- Karlee Hankin
No. 12
40 × 30cm Timed, signed, limited edition print of the soft pastel work, Where we said goodbye. Archive Quality, German Etching paper print.
This product includes the signed and numbered print and certification. This print is unframed and has a red border.
“This was the place I said goodbye to you. I remember here, when I found out you were sick and how we left your ashes where you loved to be most. A fishing peg, at your favourite place. We put our feet in there. We laughed when Ciara was sure she felt a fish stake a nibble of her feet and she sqeaked! We were sure it was you. A wind-up to let us know you were okay.
It feels like at one point in life everything should be okay but the truth is I’ll always be changed. I knew it from the day you died and it’s true now. Nothing will quite ever be the way it was, and strangely that’s the way it’s supposed to be...? I wish it wasn’t such a sad place - to come to accept losing someone. I wish there was a magic thing that could let us feel okay with losing them. But really it will never ever be… ‘right’
In this piece I was also seeking forgiveness. I am so sorry. I want to be forgiven for some of the things I did and said that I could’ve done better. Our relationship was scary, ultimately. And I was afraid all the time that you would hurt me in some way. And shielding myself from that pain I felt that I missed out on the potential for our relationship to be good.
On reflection I definitely see how my self preservation led to my dad and I being more gentle with each other in the long run... Although I lost him, just as we were beginning to cultivate a real friendship again, I don’t think we would’ve cultivated anything if I had let things carry on, the way they were before that. So I’m happy we had our disagreements, arguments, hang-up phone calls and angry moments. Because eventually we met each other again, as better, more forgiving people.
I’m glad I got to know that part of you.”
- Karlee Hankin
No. 13
40 × 30cm Timed, signed, limited edition print of the soft pastel work, Echoes. Archive Quality, German Etching paper print.
This product includes the signed and numbered print and certification. This print is unframed and has a red border.
“After navigating the deep water, inevitably at one point you’ll find yourself smiling like an idiot at something lovely, like spring bulbs or the one deep breath your dog takes before falling asleep. Then you realise they’re gone again. Like a bus, it hits. It hurts for such a long time, and squeezes the happiness out of you again and again.
As time moves on, the smiling, soft moments come more frequently and the pang of loss isn't a shock anymore, you just expect it to join the smile as usual; a depressed feeling.
More time.
One day you figure they might smile with you at this seemingly mundane thing. Because they would love the pink spring bulbs and they loved your dog so much. They become integrated in your moment of joy you know they’d like too. Almost like they gift them to you. The pangs still come - yes they do. But not the same way. They come with a peppering of the new connection you make with them now - now that your heart is fully poured out to them. Now they know everything. And have heard all your sorrys. And they’ve sent all the birds and the butterflies to you. And you can go with them to the shallow water a bit more readily now. They help to lift you out.
My dad is in so many facets of my personality. He shaped a huge part of who I am. I tried running from those parts at one point in my life. I hated those parts. And now, every time I see him shine through me, I feel this kind of recognition. I’m so glad he’s still here, even if it’s just me who sees that, only briefly. I’m so happy I didn’t manage to scrub that part of myself away. Because the world lost out when he went. It was duller, a lesser place immediately. The parts of him that are in me remind me that if the world is dull, well, then I might have something I can do something about that.”
- Karlee Hankin
No. 14
40 × 30cm Timed, signed, limited edition print of the soft pastel work, Pool. Archive Quality, German Etching paper print.
This product includes the signed and numbered print and certification. This print is unframed and has a red border.
“Pool is special. The perspective has changed. All about are uncertain wobbles and connection. Water is so so special. It’s been a trope in my life. I’m called to it. It keeps the parts of us we need, reflected. It becomes a part of us, protected. It floats us, suspended. I loved swimming with you. I still go to Greece. I look in rock pools for you. I still miss you when I look at koi fish. Thank you for swimming with me, splashing me. Teaching me to dive. Calling me a mermaid. Your water baby. Playing with me. You were Pan, definitely. All mischief and wildness. I have a syrinx. That was what Panpipes were called once, you know. Simon Peter Pan Gould. I carry it in my back. It doesn’t hurt me.”
- Karlee Hankin
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No. 7
40 × 30cm Timed, signed, limited edition print of the soft pastel work, Four is your favourite. Archive Quality, German Etching paper print.
This product includes the signed and numbered print and certification. This print is unframed and has a red border.
“This is No.7 Lucky. In the sense of where this work is taking the manta rays, the stars are beginning to come away from their body and fly amongst each other - a symbol of just breaking free of some of that chained up heavy experience. It shows that there’s a part of grief worth absolutely cherishing. Worth really leaning into. It’s this part you can’t see coming. The bit where you remember all the good stuff for just a moment and forget all of the bad stuff. Wild, playful and a little silly. Reminiscent of a time when pure discovery was happening as a kid.
Losing a parent is traumatic to the point where you question everything you thought you knew. This painting was about dropping the questions, even for a moment, and going for a swim in deluded bliss in beautiful, fun memories. Whilst making this piece I felt that my spirit ran free a little, lost in a literal dance for the most part.
I was listening to ‘She’s like a rainbow’ by The Rolling Stones while I made every minute of it. It’s a song my dad used to say reminded him of me. I love this song. I love the primary school feeling that the music gives. I love the unapologetic leaning into fabulous joy. I really wanted to reflect how special and sparky and crazy and silly my dad could be. It also reminded me how we could be together, in that state. The end of the song, where it gets all wonky, is a real reflection in this work. The parts that are still wonderful, even though completely imperfect.
The type of blue I’ve used is extremely strong in colour; a very pure pigment. Fully saturated, charged. I think my dad had ADHD and suffered cPTSD. He was extremely gifted and so much fun. He had the side to him that was electric with joy. Unfortunately, when he was sad or angry, he was also electric. I see a lot of similarities within us and I think this image captures what we had in common, and some of the parts we don’t. Either way it’s a beautiful dance, I managed to capture and suspend.”
- Karlee Hankin
No. 8&9
40 × 26cm Timed, signed, limited edition prints of the soft pastel works, Lighter. Archive Quality, German Etching paper print.
This product includes the signed and numbered print and certification. This print is unframed and has a yellow/cream border.
“ No.8 and 9 Lighter is a very obvious separation peace. Like a single reality split into two. The colours, compared to the last piece, tell the story of how death really feels.
There is the strange lightness after they pass. When you see a parent in so much pain, they’re passing is the only thing left they can do to ease it. And you kind of want it for them.
I’ve said for some time there is this honour about being by someone’s side whilst they’re going through their last days. It’s a privilege, and should not be treated lightly. This is a very touchy subject around my father’s death, because he had a lot of people that loved and cared for him. And a lot of people that felt they were pushed aside, including myself.
Loss is made harder by people who go inwards and become selfish and destructive. The sheer amount of badmouthing and spiteful, nasty talk at that time was intolerable. A lingering heaviness you don’t want around during someone’s last days.
At one point I felt at fault. But I don’t think it’s my fault anymore. I think if I did, this piece would be in about four or five pieces. This piece was about really honouring the separation between my father and myself, and thinking at length about the separation between my sister and I.
At one point I was all for a reconciliation, because I recognised the pain she was in and why she was so angry. But I don’t feel that way anymore. I feel like I wasn't afforded any grace to cope in my own way - the only way I knew how. And that some things (and people) are better off apart.”
- Karlee Hankin
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Art navigating the relentless feelings of grief, memory and connection.
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